It’s inevitable and that’s what I’m most afraid about
Your too much perfect for me, ought to be friends
I don’t know what your friends told you
But when I said I love you, it’s pure, it’s faithful and it’s true
I don’t know how you can smile when you’re about to say goodbye
I’m here holding on, and I’ll never let go
I miss your sweetness, stolen kisses, sweet messages
Your miles away, strangers again, I hate the feeling
I always felt the urge of having you in my arms
And when you’re here next to me, I felt very special
I don’t have regrets, I’m very thankful that I love you this much
And I will always be grateful for this once in a lifetime chance
There are no fancy gifts, lavish chocolates or expensive restaurants
Nonetheless, I offered you my time, a hand to help, and a shoulder you can sleep
And for all of my plans and my dreams, your there, you always have a part
For this time, I know what “other half” meant
I just can’t live without you and I don’t know where to start
I am too much attached, I can’t see us apart
I love you forever and I’ll always be here waiting for you
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When your confused, just stop and pray, and everything will be okay sooner or later
It’s a long night, rain pouring outside
Lights are off, its dark cold
I lie here half awake, thinking of you
I gave up everything, and gained nothing
Maybe I’m trying so hard for something I cannot have
Or maybe I’m trying so hard to save what we have
Here I am, can’t move, can’t talk, can’t scream
Can I Just give up, since it hurts so bad?
I’m not that strong you know that, you know everything
I have short temper, I am impulsive, and I am stupid
I am weak, barely standing in my feet
I don’t know what to do anymore
And it feels so wrong trying to held on
Let’s just walk away, and see life in different separate ways
You introduced me to paradise
Then I made you my happiness, my princess
You removed all the fears and insecurities
Those smiles and laughs are the best
We made a short simple journey
Created our own history with our own smiles
We loved each other, trust one another
We are buddies, brothers, lovers
But in the end, issues arise, taste of differences
Independent, dependent, black and white, green and red
The old days are gone, we both made are mistakes
It seems like we argue every day, we are almost strangers again
This is the toughest decision I made, you made me no choice
I’m sorry but this is not working, I can’t stay anymore
It’s not your fault, there is no one to blame
I never imagined this time will come
The time of tears and regrets
As we go our separate ways
I tend to over think. I’m always trying to analyze each possible consequence in every decision that I’ll make. It’s like turning every decision in a "what if" statement and seeing each result of every step. I’m not a risk taker, I don’t take chances, and I want a smooth way to solve anything. I know that every decision has its own consequence, but if you know what will you’re going to face then you can brace for impact. Most of the time, my probability works making next steps easier to calculate, experience helps every now and then, building my confidence throughout the process.
However, sometimes there is an unknown variable that will suddenly appear out of nowhere. Fate plays, my probability sucks and everything will fall apart. That will be a hard earned lesson as they say. Confidence will decline, but instead of blaming my decision or looking for someone to blame, I can, I must turn that situation in a positive form, like a challenge thus turning it into an encouragement. That will be an ideal goal, it’s hard to do, but that’s the way it is. With that unforeseen situation, I’ll lose trust in my analytical problem solving skills, but indeed it will add to my bravery to overcome such unforeseen problems in the future.
I did my best, or at least I tried. For that reason, I have no regrets.
